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Jessa Duggar Seewald announced that she miscarried around the holidays.
The 19 Kids and Counting alum, 30, revealed the terrible journey of her newest pregnancy in the almost 19-minute YouTube video, from alerting her children about the new baby to dealing with the aftermath of the news that she had lost.
Jessa revealed on tape in one session that she was anxious early in the pregnancy because she was “spotting” blood. Her family sang the devotional song “Day by Day” to cheer her happy, she said.
However, upon arriving at her next ultrasound appointment, the doctor broke the terrible news that the baby did not “look good.”
“Nothing could have prepared me for the weight of those words in that moment,” Jessa said. “At that moment I was just in complete shock. I didn’t have words. I just immediately started crying.”
She claimed that her husband, Ben Seewald, wrapped his arms around her as the technician left the room to allow them to “process the loss.”
“We were just sitting there holding hands and crying, like, ‘what do we do from here,’ ” Jessa recalled.
“I feel like in some ways miscarriages can be so jarring because you don’t have clear signs of something going wrong,” she added. “I had minimal spotting for 24 hours, and that was it.”
She stated that she decided to check into a hospital to undergo a dilation and curettage treatment to remove the fetus from her womb due to the potential of difficulties with passing the fetus at home.
Jessa tearfully recalled the moments leading up to the procedure, saying, “I was able to thank God in that moment for giving us this life, even if we wouldn’t be able to hold this baby in our arms.”
However, she said it was ultimately after the procedure was done that she faced the hardest moments of the entire process.
“Those 10 to 15 minutes before I was taken back to the room where Ben and my mom were waiting were probably some of the hardest in my life, just laying there feeling so alone,” she explained, as her voice broke on camera.
In the aftermath, Jessa said she struggled with herself about how she could have done things better, but that having her children there to console her — sons Spurgeon, 7, and Henry, 6; and daughters Ivy, 3, and Fern, 18 months — helped her greatly.
She concluded the video by claiming she intends to “take a break” from social media in order to focus on her recovery.
