One of the most profound is that she searched her ancestry and discovered that the came from a slave owner.
“I researched my ancestry recently and learned that I come from a slave owner who fell in love with and married a slave. I had to process that revelation over time. I questioned what it meant and tried to put it into perspective,” she said.
Her motivation for connecting to her past was to make sense of the conflicts in her own relationship, She says:
“I come from a lineage of broken male-female relationships, abuse of power, and mistrust. Only when I saw that clearly was I able to resolve those conflicts in my own relationship. Connecting to the past and knowing our history makes us both bruised and beautiful.”
As a consequence of dealing with her past, she hopes she’d be able to break the curse in the family.
“I pray that I am able to break the generational curses in my family and that my children will have less complicated lives,” she adds.
In the same interview, she also revealed about dealing with motherhood and how her two pregnancies were different.
“After the birth of my first child, I believed in the things society said about how my body should look. I put pressure on myself to lose all the baby weight in three months and scheduled a small tour to assure I would do it. Looking back, that was crazy. I was still breastfeeding when I performed the Revel shows in Atlantic City in 2012. After the twins, I approached things very differently.
“After the C-section, my core felt different. It had been major surgery. Some of your organs are shifted temporarily, and in rare cases, removed temporarily during delivery. I am not sure everyone understands that. I needed time to heal, to recover. During my recovery, I gave myself self-love and self-care, and I embraced being curvier”.